On Truth, Transphobia, and COVID19
Why I decided to speak up about transgender's sense of victimhood, and why this is so relevant and important to each and every human being.
Last week someone who used to attend the musical gatherings (jams) I have been going to for more than four years has written a post on social media. In it, the person talked about experiencing pushback and veiled hostility while attending the jam events, and claimed being misgendered.
The result of replying to the social media post was a long exchange with other people, and so I decided to share here what I wrote, as well as expand at the end on the topics of transhumanism and COVID19. I edited some of the responses to expand on the topics and to explain myself better.
Misunderstanding, not Misgendering
Dearest XXX,
I have been a member of the YYY jam community for more than 4 years, and I have never witnessed any discrimination or "pushback and veiled hostility" against any member of our community due to their sexual preference, religion, colour, age, etc.
For many people, there are only two biological genders: men and women, which are determined by our chromosomes. Therefore, many people do not consider one can "misgender" another human being. You might disagree with these people, and you have all the right to do so, but lack of agreement does not and should not result in hostility.
You were born as a biological man. Since we are blessed to live in a society that cherish individual freedoms, you are blessed to have the right to self-identify your gender. However, the same foundations of self-identification are rooted in the lack of compelled speech in our society, meaning that you cannot force someone to use specific language against their will. If someone made a mistake, like I did once, and referred to you as “he” and not as “she”, you have the choice to perceive it as "pushback and veiled hostility", or to perceive it as a mistake or a lack of knowledge, and embrace it with love, compassion, kindness, happiness, and stillness. I can assure you that when I called you “he” I did not know your preferred pronoun is “she”.
Misunderstand others? for sure, as it is part of life. We constantly misunderstand our parents, partners, kids, and friends. It is this misunderstanding and the choices of how we perceive the misunderstanding which allows us to have a mirror to what our ego is, not who we really are (consciousness) or what the world is.
With deep love, compassion, kindness, happiness, and stillness.
Ehden
On Suffering, and Truth
In life pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional, and it is caused when one is trapped in one's story and does not surrender to the now.
The path to the now is truth: not my truth or your truth but THE truth, which is an endless stream of love, and the only way to experience it is via the surrendering of the ego, our false sense of self, our story.
It is the ego who is telling itself that things are not as they should be, because the ego is a reference system. The ego creates a sense of meaning that is derived from past and future, which exists only in one's mind.
I embrace with deep love and compassion the deep pain people it must be for anyone wo feels they were born in a body that does not match the biological gender that they were born in. It is hard enough for so many of us to grasp why life is so hard, and I cannot even imagine how it feels to add on top of that such an experience.
The question is: what do we do when we feel life is so unfair?
Suffering occurs when the ego is taking the pain caused by life's hardship, interpreting it, and suggesting that it is (AKA "you") a victim. By doing so, the ego is preventing one from the ability to be in the now, because it traps that one in the story even deeper, by suggesting actions to fix the pain, by assigning blame, by justifying anything which is not an act of unconditional love.
We are not victims, or saviours, or judges/bullies. Who we all are is consciousness which is experiencing via us. We are one, we are sacred.
I do not say that it is easy for the ego to surrender to the now. My ego (bless it) had a long intimate relationship the sense of suffering, and it made me experience being trapped within it, hence the reason why I am writing. The truth is that this suffering creates an ever-growing sense of isolation from divine truth, which leads to all even deeper pain, and even greater suffering.
What the ego is unable to grasp is that when it is complaining about the pain and suffering it acts like an astronaut who is sitting in a spaceship, complaining about the rocket fuel. It is our journey and its challenges that allows us to be free from the gravity of our story.
There is so much blessing in the now, so much healing, so much peace, so much beauty, so much love. In the now you cannot perceive yourself as being in the wrong body, because it is what you have in the now, and even if one is having a sensation of being in a body that does not match the biological gender might hurt, since there is no suffering in the now it is experienced very differently from an ego experience of that pain.
Our ego is evolve within us around the age of 4. Before that, we have no sense of separation. This is why babies and toddlers have a bullshit filter and see you as you are: they cannot relate to your story or understand it, because they don't have an ego. If you think a baby or a toddler can perceive anything else, it is a lie that the ego is telling itself, and like all lies it only lead to more suffering. I wrote because I care for the truth because only via the truth the now can be experienced. I am here to serve THE truth, because the alternative is getting lost again in my (ego) own stories, my (ego) own lies, my (ego) own suffering.
Only the truth will set you free, and the way to the truth is via that Christianity calls "the cross", the unimaginable pain of the death of the story, which one can experience in their bodily experience when the ego is taking a leap of faith and trusting God, which is THE truth, which is THE love. The path to freedom from suffering is via unconditional love and surrendering our truth.
Allow me to end with the beautiful words of wisdom of Stevie Wonder:
"We all know sometimes life hates and troubles can make you wish you were born in another time and space. But you can bet your lifetimes that and twice it's double, that God knew exactly where he wanted you to be placed. So make sure when you say you're in it, but not of it, you're not helpin' to make this earth a place called hell. Change your words into truths, and then change that truth into love, and maybe our children's grandchildren and their great grandchildren will tell."
I am the LOVE that is YOU,
Ehden
About Intersex, Part 1
As members of the human species, there is a man, there is a woman, and there is a genetic disorder called intersex. It is real, the same way there are conjoined twins, but the same way conjoined twins are not a new form of human being, the fact that there are genetic abnormalities does not make intersex a different gender. From an evolutionary perspective, we are part of a long family of species that all have male and female as the two genders. So yes, I totally agree there is such thing as intersex, but it does not mean it is a gender, not from an evolutionary perspective.
Here is a comment from YouTube which summarize it better than I do:
As a genetic scientist, the science on this video is very much correct. My only criticism is the fact that all the variations in chromosomal sex mentioned in this video are all considered to be abnormalities. And unfortunately, most of the conditions mentioned all lead to infertility in the individuals with these genetic conditions. The reason that they are abnormalities is simply because if sex really was just a spectrum, then imagine what a nightmare humans would face to reproduce with the sheer number of different sexes that could be possible. Thankfully, sex for almost all human beings is binary and it’s the only reason every single one of us in this comment section is here today. I am in no way dismissing any of the points made in this video however it is very important that people understand the facts of chromosomal sex.
Intersex, Part 2
Dearest, contrary to what you wrote, Intersex provenance is 0.018%, not 5%.
Abstract:
Anne Fausto-Sterling's suggestion that the prevalence of intersex might be as high as 1.7% has attracted wide attention in both the scholarly press and the popular media. Many reviewers are not aware that this figure includes conditions which most clinicians do not recognize as intersex, such as Klinefelter syndrome, Turner syndrome, and late-onset adrenal hyperplasia. If the term intersex is to retain any meaning, the term should be restricted to those conditions in which chromosomal sex is inconsistent with phenotypic sex, or in which the phenotype is not classifiable as either male or female. Applying this more precise definition, the true prevalence of intersex is seen to be about 0.018%, almost 100 times lower than Fausto-Sterling s estimate of 1.7%.
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/12476264/
Intersex, or Disorders of Sex Development (DSD), Part 3
Such an interesting article focusing on The Disorders of Sex Development (DSD) which is occurring 1 of 4500 births. And yet this has nothing to do with transgenders. I therefore ask not to use a genetic disorder as explanation/justification to the transgender phenomenon. Transgenderism has nothing to do with genetics but has deep roots in social constructs and is ego centric.
Sex Redefined: The Idea of 2 Sexes Is Overly Simplistic
Transphobia, Violence, and Our Left Hemisphere.
I do not feel fear, nor anger, nor hate towards those who self-identify themselves as trans. As I said, I feel deep love and compassion to transsexuals because I cannot even imagine how painful it is to experience a mind that is telling you that your biological sex is different from the sex you were born into.
What I tried to suggest above is that following the mind's voice is at the root of all suffering. This is true for everyone, not only transsexuals. It is part of the human experience and is at the root of all suffering.
When it comes to the separation between gender and sex, this is again an ego domain, because the ego can decide a lot of things which has nothing to do with the objective reality. Even the term self-identification can be considered as flawed, because it is in fact an identification of the false sense of self of the ego.
To make it clear - I do not claim that sexual orientation does not exist. Some people have other sexual orientation than their biological sex. One might feel attracted to the opposite sex, or to their own sex, or to a female or male Zebra. We can sit around and debate for hours the root causes of that, but again, that's an ego domain.
The reason I am writing the reply is because you have used the term "transphobia", which belongs to the group of ego experiences that one is having when someone is challenging the ego's model of reality.
Attributing qualities of fear, anger, danger, and hate to what the ego perceives as "others" is a projection. I understand it is an uncomfortable experience because every time our model of reality is being shattered it is extremely painful. The root of this very painful experience lies in our neurology, and the fact that it is our left hemisphere is in charge of giving a sense of meaning to reality based on our own experiences. It develops a model, which like all models is abstract and flawed. When the model is wrong, the ego protects it because its own sense of what's right and what is wrong is derived from that model. You can read more about it in the work of Iain McGilchrist.
Reality (the now) is being experienced by the right hemisphere, which is suppressed in our culture, and is damaged by the environment we live in, which puts an emphasis on the false sense of "I" (ego) experiences. Since it is the right hemisphere's role to see reality and update the left hemisphere model by allowing integration of new information, such suppression leads to being trapped in our model of reality, also known as "our story". That same story is the one that tells "itself" that it is a victim, because by being a victim the ego provides a false narrative, a lie, an inner justification to why it has the moral right to suppress what is threatening that model.
The ego starts with a lie, a projection towards the threat to the model of reality, blaming that those who do so (or what does so) endanger one's (false sense of) self. This usually is followed by real aggression toward those who threaten the model of reality, which is justified by the ego. By having "a victim" status, the ego gives itself the right to act in ways which are not acts of unconditional love.
The truth is that the more we allow our ego to tell us what is wrong and what is right, the more we experience suffering. Only THE truth can set us free.
The ego mind is saying "I love you" because it sees the world in separation.
The heart is singing without words a music which says, "I am the love that is you".
Surrender to the heart, beloved one.
Ehden
Not Telling The Truth is an Act of Cruelty
XXX wrote that "Attitude, not age, will determine how accepting of another's lived experience", and that is so true. However, when our attitudes are driven by our ego, the ego then assigns values to "others" which fits the model of reality it has based on the left hemisphere. I never questioned the fact that XXX has very painful inner experiences but said that inner experiences which are driven by our ego are not representative of the truth, and that without truth suffering occurs. I wrote it because I have experienced in the past (when I was trapped in my ego) a lot of suffering, to levels that it was unbearable to breathe. I wrote to XXX because I feel XXX as a sensitive, beautiful human being that struggles to find peace and happiness. I never questioned the authenticity of XXX’s experience, but simply asked him to consider whether it is based on truth.
I lived most of my life witnessing my ego telling itself (false sense of self, me) what is true and what is not, and how the ego's strategies to cope with pain had led me to suffering. I've witnessed that pattern in everyone around me. After what seemed like a life full of endless experiences of suffering, I had a death/rebirth experience in 2014, when I experienced for the first time what we really are - a soul (AKA consciousness). As a result of that, my ego sense of self finally experienced unconditional love from within, but my ego self-model of reality was still there (left hemisphere), and it didn’t like that model. The ego-self served the true self until it got weakened (trauma), and then it stopped surrendering. As a result, I lost everything I had (and I mean everything). At that point, when I was ready to end this misery of life, I remembered that my suffering meant I am trapped again in my story. The ego tried to end the suffering by fixing the model of reality, but it failed, and the suffering only intensified. In January 2021, after 6 weeks I found myself lying on bed, exhausted, and hearing the following words coming out of the depths of me: "I surrender, I surrender. God, I am sorry. God, please forgive me. God, please guide me". It was the second time in my life that I prayed to God (the only time I ever prayed to God before was when my daughter was dying, and I asked God to kill me and let her live). Only after that experience of true surrendering of the ego, a total unconditional surrendering, I was able to experience life differently, and even when I experience extreme pain my ego knows that the only solution is surrendering to the truth, via unconditional love, in the now. It was the oath my ego has made to God (truth and love), that set me free. When I wrote to XXX, I also wrote to my own ego. We are all one.
I've mentioned compassion in my first reply, which might seem odd to many who would read what I've written and think there is no compassion within me to write things that cause pain to XXX. This is a wrong understanding of what compassion is. Not telling the truth is not an act of compassion but an act of cruelty. Not speaking out the truth and allowing another human being to continue to be trapped in their own suffering is logical to the ego, because that is what our ego is doing to us all the time. Only the truth can set us free.
My teacher used to kick the hell out of me by telling me the truth. It hurt, A LOT. I sometimes would get upset and angry, but I trusted her unconditional love, even though my ego was unable to grasp it. I wrote because I love XXX unconditionally. As I said, when I wrote to XXX, I wrote to my own ego. I do not reject the existence of the inner experience, or judge it, or try to fix it. I just state that it does not represent the truth, and that surrendering is the answer. If you think "hold on a minute, isn't that a form of judgement?", well, again it depends on how you perceive what judgement is. I didn't assign it to be good or bad, I am simply stating that if happiness and peace is what one wishes to experience in life, surrendering to the truth is the only way to reach it.
Jews believe that everything is written (predetermined), but we are given a choice. The choice is how we experience what is. We all have a choice to be happy or not. Happiness can only be experienced when you truly love yourself. NOT your false sense of self, which is your ego, or your story, but your TRUE self - an endless soul, endless love, endless truth. Only when the ego surrender to that true self happiness can be experienced, and only then the ego finds the peace it was looking for.
Be stillness...
Till the next now,
Ehden
Compassion vs Feeling Pity
Encouraging a person who is Suffering to suffer even further by not telling them the truth is perpetrating harm. For example, if someone is suffering from a medical condition of clinical delusion does it mean the people who love him/her must not only accept that the person is suffering from delusion but also validate that person's "lived experience" as the truth?
I never questioned the fact that trans people perceived being trapped in a wrong body, and that it is incredibly painful. What I suggested is that trusting our ego mind as the ultimate knower of truth is at the root of all suffering, and that surrendering of the ego is the only way to be free from suffering because only then one can experience the now.
I find it amusing that people who have NO CLUE about my own "lived experience" tell me that I reject others' lived experience from a place of violence or hate or whatever their mind tells them. You never walked a mile in my shoes and yet you already think you know me and judge me.
It's hilarious that you do exactly what you accuse me of, that you violate the golden rule of "don't do to others what you don't want others to do to you" and claim to do so from a place of superior moral stance.
Assigning to me negative attributes and telling statements which are not statements of truth just because one's ego mind does not like what I write is one's ego mind attempt to avoid a real conversation about the truth. It is the ego's way of protecting the story it exists upon. These kinds of actions allow the ego mind to use the "victim" status for immoral actions, to follow the "black mirror" edition of the golden rule: "do to others what your ego mind tells you they do to you".
My own lived experience has led me to a now that allows me to recognise when another human being is suffering, to know that telling someone that their ego false sense of self is right is not going to make the suffering less, only worse, that what most people call "compassion" is in fact feeling pity for the person, which is in fact an ego trip, that only the truth can set us free, and that you can't fix anyone.
All I did was to simply speak the truth as I see it and told XXX that we all have a choice to either suffer or to live in happiness, and that we cannot trust what the mind/ego tells us about ourselves and what it perceives as everything else.
I spoke my truth (as much as I can) because as I wrote before, in life pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional. You can't escape the pain of life. When we try to avoid pain the most important question is: is our strategy based on truth or a lie? For example, all addictions are an ego driven self-medication attempt to handle pain, based on a lie the ego tells itself, and as Eckhart Tolle once said, "addictions start with pain and end with bigger pain". Most human beings are addicts, and their addiction is to their ego's story. It is a coping mechanism of the ego which experiences pain but refuses to surrender, which is why we suffer.
"I want to be happy", "I want to be free", "I want peace", "I want to know the truth" are all oxymoron. You can experience happiness, be free, feel peace, and know the truth ONLY when we stop wanting, when we surrender.
Deep love,
Ehden
About Self-Identification and “Dying on This Hill”
Dear - Thank you for your reply.
First - I truly do my best not to mistakenly use masculine attributes when I write about XXX. If I missed it, it's my dyslexia, and I apologise for it. I have used "gender natural" (lol) language because I write to myself as well as to others, so I do my best to allow anyone who reads it, including myself, to feel I am writing to them personally.
From the beginning I am saying the simplest thing: the ego is delusional when it comes to truth, it is the root of suffering, and the only way to escape it is via surrendering to "God", which is THE truth, via unconditional love. I didn't discover anything, I don't say anything radical, I didn't invent anything new, I just provided a personal acknowledgment that Buddha and Jesus were right (surprise surprise hahaha). Bless the teachers!!!
Of course, the question is how one can experience surrendering. Well, the ego does not want to surrender, or like to play a pretend game of surrendering, which makes it very hard for us to grasp how to experience it, because it is the opposite of doing. I was blessed to have a teacher that loved me unconditionally, and even with her I was unable to surrender fully.
It took a chain of events that if someone else would have told me that they occurred to them my rational mind would have said "you're crazy", a chain of events that defied reality as we all experience it, without any drugs. These chain of events that broke my whole perception of reality, made me realise that I have two options: go back to my suffering, or try to wake up. This was of course a mistake because you cannot wake up by trying, which led to more suffering, until I decided that to wake up or to die. Turned out I had to die first, and only then did I wake up.... That's the extremely short version of the story hahaha
Everyone has their ego's own truth; I totally acknowledge it. There is your ego's truth, my ego's truth, and THE truth. What you call "XXX’s truth" is in fact "XXX’s ego's truth". What you call "my truth" is in fact "my ego's truth", the same for me. Can this "truth" make us happy? no, it doesn't, because happiness is experienced in the now, and the ego cannot experience the now. Just because we have an experience or a voice that tells us something does not mean it is true. Does XXX have the right to follow the ego's truth? Of course, but the again - THE truth is that it leads to suffering. XXX can choose if to suffer or not, so do you, so do I. What I am saying is that the ego refuses to acknowledge the fact it is causing the suffering, and it blames everything and everyone else. The ego lies to us and lies are at the root of all suffering. Until one starts to realise that their own suffering occurs when they trust their ego, one is trapped in suffering.
Which brings me to the nuclear bomb called sexual or gender self-identification:
There is a reason why I don't try to address it directly. It is so insanely complex and any attempt to try to simplify it is going to fail. This is because the left hemisphere develops the personal sense of meaning and everything is so interconnected, and the same information can be viewed from so different internal prisms that any attempt to abstract the abstraction layer of reality we have created and claim it can derive the truth is a false statement.
For example - how much does a dominant mother raising up a male child impact the child's sexuality when they grow up? How much does that child's (now adult) ego and the sense of meaning of the left hemisphere have been impacted by experiencing a mother during the years he has not yet developed an ego? How can that child (now adult) be able to investigate it, if the thing that is investigating it is the ego, which as we said was shaped by events that occurred before it was formed?
There is a truth of what has happened to that child, but this truth is invisible to the child's now adult ego, and the ego will come up with stories, as it always does (see split brain experiments for ultimate proof), and that will be that child, now adult "my truth".
Scientists who investigate the topic of human memory have proven that "memory" of "past events" is constructed by our brain. Memory is more constructed than retrieved, and this construct can be false. Sadly, I've seen it happening to people I truly love, and while they might look and sound the same as they were before an event occurs, the way they remember the past has nothing to do with what has happened.
So please, can we please leave aside our stories, be in the now, and witness the truth for yourself. That's it. I cannot tell you how it will feel, but I can assure you that it is better than all the drama that our mind and ego is telling us exists. I am here to remind you that you are not the story you tell yourself, we are not. We are in love; we are THE love.
You asked me why I die on this hill: when I saw XXX’s original post, I felt the suffering, I recognised the inner seeds that led to the experiences, I recognised how we all carry these inner seeds, and how the ego mind can entrap all of us. Am I supposed to simply ignore the roots of the suffering and tell the ego self what it wants to hear? Would that serve THE truth? No. Would that reduce the suffering? no.
So, I told THE TRUTH (as best as I can), which the ego mind hates to hear. You see, THE TRUTH is the only hill my ego self would happily die for, because it is the only hill that really exists, and it is not a hill at all, and the real you don't really die hahaha.
Remember who you are.
Deep love,
Ehden
The Painful Truth
I invite everyone to watch the testimony of Scott (Kellie) Newgent, the founder of TREVOICES, in the documentary “What is a woman?”. In it, Scott tells his painful story of becoming a trans, the damage it has caused to his body, the infections he is getting every 3 to 4 months. Scott explained that all medical transition operations are experimental, and that transgenders become most suicidal seven to ten year AFTER the surgery. Transgenders are a huge money making for the medical industry - there are 5 children hospitals that specialize in transition operations, but parents are not disclosed that there is a 67% complication rate of the operation, which lead to infections that cannot be treated. As Scott said, “being a parent is loving the hell out of your kids and helping them to see around corners”, which means helping them understand the truth beyond what society is trying to indoctrinate them with. You cannot “pause” puberty. There are ZERO long term studies on the impact of using hormone blockers with children.
Every child that is being convinced into becoming a transgender is creating a 1.3 MILLION DOLLARS of profit for the pharma industry. The company that manufactures and sells the hormone blockers, Lupron, has paid 874 MILLION DOLLARS in fines. These “hormone blockers” are chemical castration, which are being given to podophiles, to people who are dying, and to KIDS that society tells them they were born in the wrong body and that it is completely safe, which is a lie.
Transhumanism
The elites are the most disconnected beings on the planet. They never experienced happiness in their lives, because they never experienced true unconditional love, nor experienced the truth that is in the now. Because of their own childhood trauma they became trapped in their minds, and as a result of that, these people decided to enslave themselves to the Devil via a Faustian bargain that has given them the powers they have.
Now these people try to enslave the rest of humanity.
I believe that the reason why the trans agenda has become so predominant in the last few years is because it is being used by those in power to push their own agenda of transhumanism. Those in power want to create a new species using genetic engineering, and they want our society to accept that if someone thinks they are in the wrong body they can change that body to solve their own suffering.
Transhumanism is also behind the experimental gene therapy that has been pushed on the people of this planet. Those behind the trans agenda are the same people that have assured people that the experimental gene therapy “against” COVID19 is “safe and effective” for adults and for children. Our government, the medical establishment, and Big Pharma are all serving their agenda (either knowingly or not knowingly).
Surrender (to the) Now.
Each of us is being given a choice: either surrender to our minds and live a life full of suffering, OR become free from suffering and experience happiness by surrendering to THE truth, to unconditional love, to what I perceive as God.
Is there a price you pay by surrendering to truth and love and serving (God) by telling the truth and loving unconditionally? OF COURSE! As I’ve written above the truth raises within the ego sensation of fear which leads to anger and aggressiveness. The transgender agenda as well as the COVID19 agenda are just two extreme examples of the lies our society is now built upon, and anyone who tries to challenge them is being attacked because it might lead more people to recognise the truth.
However, the pain that might be experienced by telling the truth from a place of love is a small price to pay in comparison to the freedom from suffering, which do not end when our bodily experience is over, because consciousness does not end when our bodily experiences are over. When we experience a now where we are no longer protected by our earthly bodily experience, and we do so without surrendering to the truth, the suffering that we have experienced in our earthly bodily being will seem like a vacation resort. Try to imagine a hell not in three dimensions or four dimensions but via endless dimensions.
Surrender to truth and love. Be here, now, and discover the end of suffering.
For I am the Love that is YOU,
Ehden
UPDATE:
Two hours after I posted this, The Telegraph published an article by Jordan Peterson entitled “We are sacrificing our children on the altar of a brutal, far-Left ideology”. I invite everyone to read it as well, to see how the profession of those who were suppose to help the people who struggle with their identity (clinical psychologists) have betrayed them, and how our culture has turned to child sacrificing practices as a result of that betrayal. But first, I invite you to read how one can be free from one’s suffering…
You speak truth. From a deep, inner place.
May blessings be upon you, for sharing your truth, in the face of the overwhelming propaganda that we are being subjected to everywhere, in every sphere of life.
May I ask, do you practice vipassana?